It’s been 23 years since that last smile So much has happened We learned more about the mental illnesses that run in our family We found husbands and had children or adopted through marriage We learned adulting is not the same for everyone We learned how to start healing from what happened We love and appreciate Dad but found men with better temperaments You deserved better You would have been a great doctor You taught me so much You taught me where I needed to start to be a better person I will never be the best, but I hope you are proud Now my youngest is 3 and you can’t take him and his sisters to the park You can’t teach them about veggies and the best uses for lemon I will tell them about you and teach them what you taught me I miss you and will always love you